My life is very influenced by music. Different times of my life all have a soundtrack to them. Sometimes, this is amazing. Sometimes, It's hard.
I can be transported instantly to that time of my life within the first few bars of a song. The feelings, emotions, happiness, pain, security, insecurity... it becomes very vivid. If I willfully play the music that has that effect on me, I can shield myself or prepare myself. If the song sneak attacks me, it can be hard sometimes depending on the memory attached to it. Sometimes I'm not ready for that emotional space. Tori Amos Little Earthquakes album sends me right back to when DJ and I had been together for a few years and things were really not good. I felt powerless and weak and insignificant and that album gave me strength. I would sing my heart out. Sing the pain out. Figure out who I was. Flyleaf "Again" takes me back to when DJ and I left the church we were deeply rooted in. It was absolutely the right decision, but very few people saw that. Our leaving was made to be very painful and alienating. I lost a lot of dear friendships because they pulled away from us. That song reminded me to just trust God and that what people said or thought didn't matter. Certain Beatles songs take me right back to my dads house in Washington. I can feel the crisp air while I was in a warm hot tub. I can smell the campfire. The Beatles really are the sound track to that place. All the love and fun memories, new experiences and unforgettable moments can be wrapped up nicely with a few songs. I find myself listening to the Beatles a lot (I especially like the Across the Universe soundtrack), because I get homesick a lot for my loved ones there. It's nostalgic and bittersweet all at the same time. Funny enough, I'm about to switch up the Cds I have in my car. I'm planning on putting Little Earthquakes in as well as Across the Universe (after I buy a CD, I still don't own one! Anyone wanna buy me a gift?), not sure what the others will be, but we will see. Does anyone else have life soundtracks? Or get transported back in time by certain songs?
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